Outcasts

I don't know what kind of people are they.
I don't know why I was put in this kind of section.
At that moment, I thought of them as despicable creatures.

My section is really fun. Really, really fun. You could laugh all day in this section until you roll on the floor and get your stomach hurt.

Our section is so much fun. But still, there are times when I really got pretty annoyed here.

Sa'min kasi, 'pag masaya, masaya talaga. As in, high ka sa kakatawa. Pero 'pag time na dapat nang magsersoyo, kapag meron nang mga bagay na related sa pag-aaral, maiinis ka na sa kanila. Kulang na lang sipain mo ang mga mukha.

Kasi, sa kalokohan lang kami magalaing.

Today, we were so happy. Our teachers on afternoon classes didn't attend class. Even Mr. Del Rio. There must be a meeting something.

Of course, like always, our classroom transformed into a Jurassic park. We're laughing our lungs out and yelling and teasing and playing. And that includes me, of course. If there's a noise, expect me to be one of those.

It was during our Physics time when our class really tuned into a jungle. They started throwing papers with each other. Almost everyone was involved in the paper-throwing fight, but I don't really care much about them since I was busy reading a book. Ganun na ko pag nagbabasa, wala nang pakialam sa ikot ng mundo.

I just noticed things had turned somewhat personal. They were throwing paper on Asis, the fattest boy in the class. No, not just in the class, but in fact, he must be the fattest boy in Liceo. I'm not kidding, no exaggeration. He was really fat.

Almost everyday, people tease him. Sometimes, I also tease him. I think Asis barely mind the mild teasing because he know he's fat. But sometimes, he also get annoyed. I know that. I just mildly tease him, and sometimes--just sometimes--join in the worse one.

But it really get me annoyed too, when I see my classmates get teased. It wasn't only Asis. There were also Fuellas, and Mendoza. Not that I don't really tease them. Of course, there were times when I join in too. But my classmates say worse things. Like the boys saying a really malutong na "BOBO!" to Asis like they were genius, and Fuellas' friends who say awful jokes directed to her, or the whole class--even her friends--saying that Mendoza is an impakta, halimaw, or the like.

It's just too annoying to hear. Hindi sa nagmamalinis ako--inaasar ko rin naman sila--pero minsan, nakakainis na talaga. I mean, those people really don't do anything to them. Really. I don't know what the hell is wrong with us.

Sometimes, I could help but react. I say, "Ang sama niyo naman" in a mild way, or when I really get too irked, I use my rapid and big mouth to say that they aren't perfect. That they have lots of imperfection too, and I would mention those imperfections, like they're getting line of seven and failed grade, that they were not physically perfect and they have bulged forehead or big head or funny teeth.

See? So I ended up being harsh to them too.

But I just couldn't help it. I know they would backfire me about being small, or how my hair doesn't look good, or that my teeth is not perfect too, or that my forehead is a little bulged too. But I don't really care about those stuff because I've already accepted that it's me. I don't care about it as long as I get even, as long as I was able to get even for the people they tease.

So today, they had the paper-throwing fight. Mga trip lang siguro namin . But imagine this: ALMOST EVERYONE--probably fifteen to twenty people--were throwing the paper on Asis. Everyone against Asis, and he was all alone. I am really puzzled what is they're problem with those three people who were probably considered as outcasts in our section, but it is so much.

I was saying, "Ang sama niyo naman." although I admit, I was a little amused about it. They were laughing, as well, as Asis, so I thought it was probably okay. Later on, I realized that things are getting a bit personal. Crumpled paper were all around the room. Even Jayson--our president--was part of it.

I was saying "Oy, tama na yan!". Kahit natutuwa pa, Jayson probably realize it was his reponsibilty to maintain peace so inawat niya na rin. Jette and Steni halted too, and they picked the crumpled paper.

But later on, it was back. Hindi na masyadong nakisali si Jayson, Jette, at Steni, but they were laughing. I was laughing before, but I'm getting a little pissed and I am telling them to stop. I was observing, and telling them to stop, and Asis was quiet. He was silently cleaning the trashes with the broom, but the others were still picking on him.

It was then that it happened.

Asid probably "errupted". Niña was taking the broom from him, and the Catherine was picking on him, when Asis lose it. He probably was about to strike the broom to Catherine,but Niña was clutching at the broom which prevented his action. Grabe! Winawasiwas niya si Niña to let go of her, which is possible for his size. But Niña was holding on the broom really tight.

At the middle of his action, binitawan ko yung binasaba ko at tumayo kahit wala pa akong sapatos. I hold on to him at sinubukan siyang pigilan. Of course I cannot do that. I was 80 pounds and Asis was probably a hundred or even more. Some helped. I was telling Asis to stop. When he let go off the broom, I was still holding on to him and telling him to calm down. He was moving in a violent way so natumba ako, and I would've smile at that time because I looked stupid but I can't smile over that petty thing.

During those few seconds which seem like so long, I could hear my classmates' laughter in the background. Like they were watching a wrestling. I was really, really annoyed.

Dizon approached Asis while laughing, probably to give a silly comment about what happened. Dahil umakyat na talaga sa ulo ko yung dugo ko, siya nung napagbuntungan ko. With my shrilling voice, I hurtled angry words at him.

Sinabi ko sa kanya, at sa buong klase namin, na bakit ba kami ganun. Na nakakainis na at grabe kami makapagbiro. Na para kaming mga walang puso. Na hindi na kami nakakatuwa. Na grabe kami makapang-asar kay Asis, at sa iba pa, na animo para kaming mga walang kapintasan. Na hindi naman kami perperkto, pero grabe kami makapang-api ng iba. Na grabe ang section namin, at di ko alam kung bakit ba ako dito napunta.

Because my emotion is always connected to my tear ducts, I couldn't help the sudden flow of my tears. Naiyak na ko. I told Asis to calm down, and went back to my chair and resumed reading. I could barely understand the story, or see the words because my tears are making my sight blurry.

I pitied Asis, and the others as well. I am not perfect, I know that, but.. it's not right for us to do such thing. We're verbally abusing them.

What is even more annoying is they barely stopped. They were still saying things to Asis. They were laughing. And I hate the sound of their laughter. I hate the sound of their voices.

At that moment, I thought of them as despicable monsters.

Then I learned that they hide Idul's bag(?) and he cried.

Wala. Mga sadista talaga kami. Sa kalokohan lang kami magaling e.

I don't know what's the matter with us. Or what kind of brains do we have. I don't know what the hell is the wrong with them, or is just me who has malfunction in the brain for my negative reactions with this. =/